Tuesday, November 28, 2006Y
part21
feelin headache.sick.giddy...decided on an early slp...recently losin appetite again.i can like nt consume food fer e whole dae n nt feelin hungry.jus dun feel like eatin..mus hab gone nuts..
xiaomei
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part20
duno wad 2 tok 2 dad.bt nw talkin less.in case "accidentally" provoke.like tey sae tok less = less mistake.skip sch outin tdy..cos no mood.lay on bed till 1pm.skip breakfast n lunch.duno wad 2 eat.n lazy 2 buy.initially wanted 2 SKIP e weddin dinner 2nite also.bt n e end still went la.made a new friend i gas.so it turned out nt tt bad? >.<xiaomei--> mood 2 spring
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Sunday, November 26, 2006Y
part 19
too fustrated 2 rite nethin...argh!!!!!
xiaomei-bloated wib fustrations n anger
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Friday, November 17, 2006Y
part 18
2mr leavin fer oversea.abit dun wan go la.partly cos plane phobia. and secondly i cant bare singaporeT_T.sae until i migrating like tt....lol
i am sure gonna miss nxt wk e project superstar.bt carrie jia you!! lao shi has expectations frm u =)) do well!
well after returnin frm trip then gonna move hse liao..to a new new de place >.<
recently been habin weird dreams.beri weird and all seems so real. bt is nt e dreams tt has been botherin me..past memories kept flashin back.memories of which i wish 2 forget..memories where i first felt love.and memories where i first felt like a failure and a fool...bt can sae sae i still miss...cant ..y should i recall sum1 hu lied 2 me,toyed my feelings and treated everythin like nothin...recallin sum1 hu thinks of another gal ish onli a stupid and foolish thing...
--dun wish 2 spend a lonely xmas---
+will my him appear?+
xiaomei e idoit
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Tuesday, November 07, 2006Y
part 17
e story of gal...ends here.? i duno. she always make herself seem so pitiful.bt ish reali tt way? hu knows..? these daes everyone saes tey suffer depression..well too much sad things gng on i gas.breaks ups, bad results,no promotion,get sacked...bt tts life and lets jus face it.
e gal hids herself again.she was disappointed.e onli person whom she believes in most tt habs have faith in her dreams and her hardwork she had put in 2 achieve her dream..actualli doubted her ability..thinks tt e hardwork she put in ish nth much.nth more unless she succeed...bt hw long n hw far was she away frm succeedin.1 yr? 3 yrs? or 4eva?she begins to lose faith...e onli person whom she thinks tt still hab e last hope in her dreams actualli doubted her,...shld she continue her dream..has she choosen e wrong path of her dream..she ish lost again..clueless...
as e xmas ish comin ..she felt lil warm bt more coldness and loneliness approachin her..she doesnt want a lonely xmas..bt sum1 whom can accompany her ..n.she doesnt ask much..jus a place 2 lean on ...tired...can she still defend herself frm e outside..?she wish she was deaf...so she wouldnt hab 2 cope wib e comment made by others...she jus cant control her feelin can she..sumtyms e comments was so harsh tt she was scared she might retaliate in a form of violence.has she gone nuts? maybe...llol
she wish tt she had galfriends tt wld stand by her and nt harmin her wib words 2 discourage her wen she herself is already losing faith...can she......
xiaomei
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Thursday, November 02, 2006Y
part 16
sorri dadi..shouldnt hab misunderstood ya..i noe u hab been workin beri hard..and u are probably plannin fer a retirement..bt wadeva ish ya decision..ur daughter here will support u 4eva de.i will learn 2 be sensible and do my best in helpin you if ya eva nd.love ya lots
movin away frm e old hse..where all e memories are there...my first ...and e last...e happi and e sad moments..memories of my growin stage.frm an ignorance gal 2 a teenager.i wld nvr 4get it.
ytd vomited out all my dinner.e feelin was terrible.and e sight was a disgust.miss tan blew up 2dae in geog.she didnt had nemood 2 teach cos she was angered.eh..a word of advice...dun teach pri sch miss tan,tey wld make u even angrier.
xiaomei
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