chap 85
EverytHin seems to go well sm00thly tdy.hmm mayb nt eben jus sm00th? LOL.
i did smth..i dun0..brave tdy? LOl mayb abit ridculous...lol i shall kp it secret =]
mayb he will reply? lolx
twinee came over nyp awhile tdy..so long neh c her la.lollx TWINEE WE MUS GO OUT!1 U CNT REJECT!. :x
o ya sry kid0 nt accompanyin u tdy afta sch .lol u will find company also de la. and yew li , capi beri hard to jio out leh.lolx
went ktv with alex lol.we were like "siaos" 0k mayb i dun0? bt his voice wasnt realli wad i expected LOL.as in nyce bt nt de genre tt i wld expect. :x de rap part was cool!!!!!! lolx rappin rocks! n finalli so long sing duet i n0 nd sing guy's part LOL.( n my voice so high..sing guy part...omg lolx)
Bt hor....overall..i feel...SO SHORT TDY!!!..de wh0le dae wif guys taller than me.1st is mrt de guy..175 above? then yewli n wen hao tey all? then alex? alex tt one...is realli i nd wear 4 inch high heels to communicate wif him.LOL.
n y wen ppl see a gal wif guy 1st instinct
: eh ur boyfren ar.lollx
liddat de gal 4eva n0 nd stead le. wif ppl kept tinkin she gt bf lollx
lastly--- i still l0ve my height---158! cute !!! hehe (bhb)
~ post at 11:44 PM ~
chap 84
my pic...ruined!!! lollx...
0k bt still i have to tks esther for using me in de star programme pic...bt.....haish....y...lolx..
tt pic..0k la..bt lolx..nt realli my style of taking...i n0e its nt beri ugly..bt lollx
hope my "photogenic" reputation still dere..cos i do care.LOL... h0pe my pic dun scare students awayLOL...
k.. i shall post up a nyce pic to cheer up myself..
if u c de ech0 pic..n refer back...plz dun sae tis...
U USED PHOTOSHOP!....
i will realli..breakdown in front of u.cos...I DUN0 HW TO USE PHOTOSHOP!!!!!
~ post at 10:04 PM ~
chap 83
gas wher i am nw lolx. at 4:17pm----- sch library.
Earpiece playin a beri emo song so i feelin chest tight nw lolx.
i nw i hinder abit to my grp.cos i had alot of activites gng on....
- o sch street jazz2
- pian0 ensemble
- ccg(maybe)
- foreign bodies
- ech0 music
- pyaess jap
i alady beri few go zhang fan dere le...i miss gng dere..of cos echo is fun reali. made new frens like esther, caleb, alex, neo, danick, jake, meijun etc(sry if i didnt mention ur name)
ytd had de coolest photoshoot with them will upload de photos if possible. unforgettable experience.=]
nw i shld be studying fer my two test tmr..bt here i am ,book opened, bt my mind..dun0 wad i am tinkin also.sitting beisde de window, daydreamin in blank LOL...if u r readin my blog nw at tis tymin in sch, u can cum find me =]
i am nw thinkin....de same qns,,that i hab been tinkin over n over again..n written in my blog once..y ppl can jus easily sae l0ve tis daes nw. easily sae hu n hu tey like. has de value of l0ve drop...y guys n gals can jus h0ld hands nw or hug or eben myb a kiss?, eben nt being stead . ok mayb i am still beri conservative mayb i still care about all tis. bt where has de most basic l0ve gone..de innocent part of being in love. de simple tings where u will go blushin n touched wen de one u love grabs ur hand fer de 1st tym. or wen he jus appear in front of u , and greet u with a gentle "hi" or even jus smiles sweetly at u which makes u go dreamy the wh0le dae in ur lala land.
i gas...in tis century..u can hardly find it nw...bt tts smth..i wld like to reexperince....frm de m0st beginning.......
~ post at 4:16 PM ~
chap 82
0k i am so pissed with nyp attendence system.. I DID ATTEND FER ALL MY E-MARKTING LEC!! i admit one tym marked absence is cos 4get bring admin card. bt de 2 tym b4, realli nt my fault le la.admin card haben get yet wad u wan me do. argh feel like sc0ldin vulgar.90% attendence nw.Wth......T_T
enugh with e pissed tingy..made me more wrinkles onli lollx.
g00d news---i gt into top 10 fer kovan superstar =] although its a small competition bt..still ya haha smth dere. i get to record an0ther demo which wld be s0ld on de dae of de grand finals at $5. ppl ! can support yi xia haha at kovan=] in de mornin i was still singin with bo yin la! LOL ester was also a lil worry.bt i still pulled it. bt..i sad fer others. HEY GUYS U WERE DAMM G00D ALSO! o btw an0ther nyp also gt in he frm sports n wellness de lolx.see me once onli on mrt can recognise me.nt bad.dun0 wad to sing fer nxt round haha..
went to watch "wad happen in vegas" tdy .nyce movie, guys n gals can go watch LOL. I WILL WATCH DE ACCURACY OF DEATH DE! I WILL! lolx..all fully b00ked la ..so sad sia..T_T
tmr is photoshoot.so excited! my 1st photoshoot!!!!! hope i dun cum out ugly n fat LOL. mus wear like white? bt tts 0k my closet so mani wHite. nxt wk i concentrate on singin de dem0(s.pro) i wan to give my best =]
bt still i also nd to focus on my acadamic.lolx wad a busy lil gal i am =D
~ post at 1:20 AM ~
chap 81
hmm sumtyms i wonder.is it g00d to be photogenic.nt tt i bhb la.LOL sae myself.
bt seriously,i tink i am more "pop" in the virtual world. As in sae like friendster fer example.
In reality life, i doubt there wld realli be ne guys cuming forward n talk to me. Bt in the virtual life, i n0rmalli would update my photos in friendster, n dere's my msn over there. And normalli afta adding sum new pics, dere wld be a new pop out fren request or msn contact add. and it wld be a guy saying, " hey like ya pic alot" or "ur pics l00k so nyce".
Bt in the reality life,i wont realli alot of tt kinda comment.
Some of the people hu see me 1st b4 l00king at my photos for the 1st time will ask me tis qns
--"did u use photoshop to edit ur pic" or "omg is tis realli u" kinda disappointed to hear that cos u dun0 wad to tink of de comment.are tey sayin u l00k betta in pictures than real person? Its nt jus one or two time tt i get tis kinda comment.is alot..lolx..
Bt dere are 2 tings i wan make clear 1st!
1. ALL MY PHOTOS ARE 100% NATURAL.95% of them are taken with0ut make up!!!
Eg:
and ...
These two are my most recent pics haha. rate hw mani % l00k like me?LOl
2. I jus kinda n0e de angle and lightings to take photo. tts y mayb sumhw abit l00k diff frm real person. n hello..sch haben teach photoshop nt tt i wld use also if i learn. and if my friendster pics l00k diff frm back to front.tts bcos of my growing stage e face changes. ppl will change as tey grow . its frm my sec 3 to poly yr1 haha.
so final qns..izzit g00d to be ph0t0genic? n l00k still 0k in real life?
~ post at 8:15 AM ~
chap 80
kinda lost count of de chaps so mind me hha.
changed a new blog skin.i gas my fingers jus to itchy cos i went to edit de previous html code.then all de codes gt messed up..and i end up had to find a new one. bt since my viewers sae it l00ks neater.then lets jus leave it tis way ba haha.still pink anw.RMB TO TAG ME!
so stress tis daes..so packed up.wan go out wif frens..also hen nan! my scedule is like..LOL.busy galgal! my modules all die le..haish...ytd do de paper...10 blanks sia..mayb cos kido sit opp me LOl jkjk wait he demand lollipop again. :x
tmr...dun0 whether i can make it nt..i realli dun wan disappoint esther.tis de 1st tym sum1 had such high expectation on my singing.i hope i dun blew it..i realli hope..nth goes wrong.
these daes alot movie i wan watch sia.
- Accuracy of death
- Sex and the city
- kungfu panda
- Prom nite
- Congkak
cool movies. bt 2 problems...1. I nd ppl to pei me watch 2. i got n0 tym to watch LOl.funi rite?
[Btw peeps!(Fwens of xiaomei)
i habing a b-dae party on de 7th june @ aloha chalet. try to cum down cos i dun wan empty dere haha..wait i hen sad.T_T jkjk.]
~ post at 12:16 AM ~
chap 79
Afta the break..i suddenly realise my instinct to sense love is gone..
i cant tell hu arnd me is realli tryin to get close me or jus treatin me buddy buddy.
haish i also tinkin too much la.like realli gt people will get close to me.
i not like yuxuan suitors queue until woodland LOl
i am 4eva belongin to the virtual side..on9 dating mayb? haah wan try? jkjk
kept tellin myself..fiona! focus on ur dream! angela can do it so can i.
bt smth kept distracting me.i cant always depend on the past to sing sad songs...the feeling is fading as i go numb each dae..lol.
to the sum1..i didnt meant to hurt ur feeling..i appreciate u fer telling me..bt i dun0 hw to react back..cos i had always treat u like a big brother, always dere to help me. i hope we can stay tt way..cos fer nw i onli wan focus on my dream..u also noe hw impt tt it is to me
tdy sms kido fer like more than 8 hrs.omg.didnt expect to sms so much. didnt also expect i gt so mani tings to talk with him.actualli is also all blah blah blah over. bt xuan warn me about him..sae she heard her fren sae he stead gals fer de purpose of stead.as in he go fer purely fer looks.i noe she guan xin wo.dun wan me get hurt again.lol bt fer nw i also no interest in him.cos i still hab to face him fer a beri long tym.
bt recently ..i tink there's a smile tt caught me..bt i am nt sure since my instincts are there since i am so numb by de hurts...if there's fate..then smth might blossom =]
~ post at 12:30 AM ~
chap 78
爱。。是什么。
对我而言。。
爱像是海浪一样。
来得快，去得快。。
它以强大的力量冲上来袭，侵略了整片沙滩，
留下所谓的踪迹。
然后
由无声无息的离开。。
所有的一切都带走。。
留下的只是
荒凉，
孤单的沙滩。。。
在现今生活。。年轻人对爱的定义。。已不深。喜欢就好，干吗管那么多。谁知道说不定明天就分手了。但。。这样的爱。。我不要。。
曾经被伤害过的人。。心中或许都会有条疤痕。对于爱，即可往又害怕。。所以一直不敢前进。
我。。就是其中之一。。。心中的那把锁。。始终没有人。。能把它打开。。
好乱哦。。心情好烦。。
看到别的女生，追求者多不胜数。。不知道是该羡慕还是妒忌。。
我又不是什么可爱甜美美少女。。怎么可能有这种“福份”。
我只是个带了面具的丑小鸭。。
好想谈恋爱。。有人。。能解开我心中的那把锁吗。。？
~ post at 9:00 PM ~
chap 78
雨下在我窗前
玻璃也在流眼泪
街上的人都看起来
比我幸福一点
用寂寞来测验
还是最想要你陪
曾一起走过的冬天
我常常会梦见
我猜不到你真正的感觉
思念写成脸上的黑眼圈
有的时候我宁愿
你对我坏一点
无法停止幻想我们的永远
爱你是孤单的心事
不懂你眼神的意思
只能像一朵向日葵
在夜里默默的坚持
爱你是孤单的心事多
希望你对我的诚实
一直爱着你用我自己的方式
我在你的心里
有没有一点特别
就怕你终究没发现
我还是在你身边
当你听着这首歌。。。你是否会想起我。。。还是想着新的另个她。。
心情--悲伤。。难过。。心在身体里淌着血。。流着泪。。
~ post at 11:55 PM ~
chap 77
(tis post had to be written in chinese to help me express betta=] sry fer inconvience)
如果那天。。我没有到那里。。
如果那天。。我们不在同一桌。。
如果那天。。我们没有一起回家。。
你我。。或许在街上相遇时。。只会擦身而过。。
当你再度呼喊我的名字。。心中轴了一下。。实在不想回应你。。
当你再度接近我时。。我不敢凝视你的眼睛。。
当你再度抚摸我的头发。。告诉我的变化是。。我羞了一会儿。。
许多的再度。。让我勾起以前不少的回忆。。让泪不自觉在眼里打滚。。
淡淡的问候。。像陌生人似的。。为什么你就不能对我视而不见呢。。
是想念还是眷恋。。我也分不清。。只记得为什么在当时分手时。。一点感觉也没有。但再度重逢时。。心不自觉难过起来。。就很想哭。。
对于我们的回忆。。依然清晰。虽然恋情时分短占。。但它却很梦幻。
我很想问你。。。
是否已找到另一个她
但问了。。。也于是无故
~ post at 11:41 PM ~
